We don't yet see things clearly. We're squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won't be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We'll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us!
Matthew 13.12
It still amazes me that God still speaks through the Bible. It sometimes feels like that certain passages were written thousands of years ago, just for me at this point in my life.
I know it is His word to us, but how does he know I was going to need to read 1 Corinthians this month and get to the 12th chapter today? It was what I really needed more than anything.
I question myself and my life...a lot. I've been questioning it lately and its been holding me back. People will say that it is my past I need to let go of. Maybe though, it is my future I need to let go. I know I give friends advice a lot, but sometimes it is too hard for me to take my own advice.
I have handicapped myself from a constant struggle for the past 3 months, but had a weak moment today. I keep telling myself that I need to take my own advice that God has allowed everything to happen just so I can be set up for my future.
Like I said, it is my future I need to let go of. The future I had seen and hoped for the past three years. I have to accept that it is not His will, but mine, that I am trying to live by. It is human nature, of course, to want to live by our own ways. We've been doing it through all civilization.
So all day today, after I made a sell, I been thing a lot and I have so many thoughts running through my head. I have some private writings that I am doing right now. Maybe I will share them someday, but not today.
Though, I will lean on this verse today and lean on His understanding. Not my own.
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