Have you ever met one of those people that everytime you see them, they are the most bubby person ever and act like there is not a problem in the world?
Yea, those people annoy me.
I used to think that when you gave your life over to God, that is what you were suppose to become. That is what I was taught, anyway. Depression or even being down because you are thinking of old memories was worng and trick of the devil. As if we think that these are not true human emotions created by God.
I do not believe this anymore. I think that we all the right to be sad, hurting, depressed, grieved, etc. God created us in His image and expresses some of these emotions in the Bible Himself. In Genesis 6.6, it states that God's heart was "grieved" because man had turned on him.
Luke 22.41-44, while Jesus was praying in the garden, He was begging God to let this obligation pass from hime. He was praying so hard that the Bible says that He was in "agony." Then an angel came to Him and gave Him strength.
I have been lately, you could say, depressed? I don't know, maybe grieving?
I have had a lot on my ming lately. Nothing to do with my relationship with God or even my job. Both those are great. I have just had a lot of old memories on my mind. I have been praying and asking God to take these memories from me, but He hasn't. I am sure there is a lesson He is trying to teach me, I am just anxious to find out what it is.
When others and I get like this, we are always asked by other individuals, what is wrong. I don't want to be one of those Chrsitians that always says "great" because of fear that they might think that might relationship with God is hindering. I think this gives non-believers the impression that a life with Jesus is a basket of roses.
No, I want to be one of the Christians that respond, "a little down today" or "I'm hangin in there."
I wonder what the world would be like if people were just open with everyone. If someone ask you what is bothering you, tell them. They'll either care for you and try to be there for you, or that will be the last time they ask you how you are. If you are upset with someone, tell them. If you love someone, tell them. Whatever it is and when opportunity presents you the chance, tell someone how you feel. You may never get the opportunity again.
I ran into a girl today that I went out with a couple of weeks ago. She asked me why I haven't text her lately. I could had lied and told her I was busy, like I used to do in the past, but I tried the honest route. I told her that, though I thought she was gorgeous (which is why I asked her out in the first place), that I don't think that we have anything in commone.
You know what? She agreed and thanked me for my honesty. Now, we can atleast be firiends and things not be awkward, unlike others in my past.
Just be honest with people, even if something is bothering you.
It gets harder and harder to put on that mask everyday and go to work when there is something bothering me or have something on my mind.
I tried not to, but I let it show tonight at band practice and Tiffany called me afterwards to ask me if everything was ok. I told her it was and I was just going through a lot with some things on my mind.
Phone calls help during times like these.
I want to show the world that yes, you will have bad days even being a Christian. Though some days you may feel as the world is crashing down on you, God is sending His Spirit to give you strength through it. '
If I didn't have Jesus inside me, I don't know how I would be getting through my days right now. However, I do...so I am living and still loving him. Thankful for his promise that he'll never leave me nor forsake me.
::listening to "if it means a lot to you" by a day to remember::
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