wise'n up with age

Really don't know what to talk about.  I really just felt like writing and wanted to get away from the private writings for now.  I feel the need to express my thoughts publicly right now. 

Been thinking a lot about family lately.  Not really the family I have now, but that which I want.  Not that I am just aching for one right now, but about the desire inside of me to actually have one.  Why it is I want one and what I look forward too.

It really has been triggered by being around Cameron and his children lately.  I was playing with Baby the other night, pushing her on her bike.  I then tried to get her to pedal the bike herself which she responded, "I can't."  Well, normally I would have just said "ok:" and continued to push her.  However, something different happened.  I responded to her, "You can.  Don't ever tell yourself you can't.  You can do anything you want." 

Pretty adult, huh?

I really didn't think about this until later that night.  In my "less-mature" days I would had not even responded to her, but probably would have cracked a joke.  I found it interesting that I replied this way because I realize that I am growing, not just in age, but in maturity.

I was talking to Terry tonight at work about being a dad, asking him what it is like.  He started talking about how awesome it is.  He said he was at a football game for his 7 year old and he was playing safety.  His son tackled a kid so hard, they both had to be carried off the field and all anyone talked about was how great a player his son was.  He said he tried to be humble about it, but when it's your child, it's hard to be. 

I can only imagine how I’ll be with my children.  I really don't care what I have, boy or girl.  I do pray that they are just healthy. 

I was listening to a sermon podcast from Life Church the other day and they had a guest speaker on and he was talking about forgiving yourself.  He was talking about the things he struggled with and it hit him hard when he walked into his son's room one night.  He just prayed that his son would never have to struggle with the addictions that he did.

I pray that tonight too.  I pray that what I struggle with, my children won't.  I am very thankful to be a part of such a great church family that I know will help me raise my children in a great environment.  I am excited to see them raised in the church and grow up with my friends around them. 

I do know this, I am fortunate to be around my friends right now as they go through parenting.  Learning first hand from them is a blessing. And until I have children of my own, I’ll just continue to spoil my friend’s children.